Monday 2 July 2012

Why are you here?

Recently I went through a dry patch, or rather a huge desert according to my experience. I didn't understand what was going on, why was it so difficult to touch the Lord in this time. In this dryness it was so easy for me to pull back and not share my enjoyment of the Lord, even if it was just a little, also to pull back from the saints and fellowshipping with them.This resulted in a vicious circle, I'm in a dry place, don't want to share, no new water can then flow into me because I'm not allowing the water to flow out. And soon enough there I was dry and feeling sorry for myself. We are channels, if we want new living water to flow into us we need to flow out to other people. How convenient to try and blame this dryness on others but the truth is 1) No one wants to spend time with someone that is sulky and refuses to share what they are going through, have you ever tried to convince someone to open up to you when you know they need to talk about what's going on, and they just refuse to, this is really hard and after a while it's a unpleasant situation for others too, and 2) why are you really here?
Last night I finally opened up to a dear sister about what I was experiencing and she asked me a valuable yet simple question; why are you here? This question though so small exposed my motive. Why was I in the church life? Was I here to make friends? To social? OR was I here for Christ and nothing else. The thing is, if we are here for a reason other than Christ we will most probably leave because of that reason, for example; if I am in the church life because of a sister being nice to me and including me in everything, if my motive for being in the church is that sister, I will probably leave because of an offence with that sister.
Our motive should be Christ and nothing else, for this to happen we need a vision, we need to pray and ask the Lord to give us a vision for His body, for Zion. When our vision is right our motive too will be right. Praise the Lord He is faithful and true!